i dun get it...
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
now, i do not know the reason of signing bond..
at first, i thought that it would be great as, i have extra money to spend..
no nid to save money until not eating or wat..
but then, after sign bond..
my life is more miserable..
not only stress in school, exams, idols.. etc..
but now for money also..
i dun understand my parents..
they ask mi to save up the bond money for next time...
end up, after i got the bond, everything changes..
i have to pay for my expenses, including my allowances, my phone bills, my bus fare..
and little things like buy books...etc..
in other words, they are not giving any single cents from now on..
i dunno, how am i going to survive..
how can i still save up at the same time?
i started to regret, yes of course i am happy that i can get into the hospital that i wanted,
and i do not have to squeeze for the vacancy when i graduate.
but, because of that i have to suffer to stress on my expenses..
i rather dun want...
yes, i agree that when i start working, i will have to worry on expenses too..
in fact , i also have to give my parents money.
but, i am still not prepared to be independent like this now..
i know i am more fortunate then many others,
who have to work and study at the same time in order to support their life..
but, this doesn't mean i will have no problem handling these.
i have many things i want to do too, many dreams i wish i can fulfil...
i seriously hate this kind of life now..
i cant believe i actually have to be more spend thrift then last time.
and, i almost forgot, wat if i fail my exams..
wat if the hospital decide to terminate my bond..
where can i find money to payback them?
sometimes, i feel that
am i their child?
why i am the one who always think for others?
there's one thing i have never say before.
i want to go Uni, i know my result are not up to it.
and, i dun dare to ask whether can i go study private Uni or go oversea to study..
because i know my sister results are better than mine,
maybe i should let my parents save the money to let her study better...
while, i nod..
the oldest should always let the young ones right?
forgive and forget..
forgive and forget...forgive and forget...
Love Pris
6:04 PM